I am starting this blog at 11:10pm on December 31, 2015. I just finished entertaining family-- I cooked meatloaf, mashed potatoes, spinach, broccoli and cheese, apple pie, dinner rolls, and of course, had some sweet tea!
Honestly, I have not made my list of goals/objectives/dreams for 2016. Why? Because today was a breakthrough moment for me of accepting what all has happened in my life the last 365 days. I am a better person, all around because of the challenges I faced and conquered.
If you follow me, you may know I launched my book club, became a regular panelist on Newsmax, continued writing for Ebony.com and The Root, was recognized by a few publications, started the Republican Diversity Coalition... and a few other successes. BUT I take you back to some of my challenges.
Here are 3 challenges that allowed me to grow:
1) Early in the year, I found myself in a writer's block. Yeah, I am a writer and I had writer's block. Really? There were many political and cultural things happening that caused my mind to race a million miles per hour yet not enough to produce a piece like I had before. I took it hard. I enjoy writing and sharing my stories to educate and inspire others. I just wasn't able to.
As a person who strives daily not to get consumed in my work, I can now look back on that painful period and know I probably needed it. I needed to be reminded that one activity does not define me and my capabilities. That season forced me to explore, research, discuss, and pray about how I fit into the solutions needed for problems in America.
2) At the beginning of this year, I grieved the lost of a relationship. In May, I was dating the guy of my dreams. Now, you may be thinking, "Girl, what was your problem?" Well, honestly, I had this fear that I would mess it up! I am sure I am not the only one who felt that way before. The guy, who is now my fiancé, was and IS truly amazing. But, I was not sure I wanted to love again.
Getting to know Jon, and trusting the peace on the inside of me to give him a chance reminded me that God's plans are ABOVE mine. Who could have convinced me that this guy I had met six years earlier would supersede "my list," treat me like a Queen, love me the same when I spoke the Word and I got snotty-- you could not have convinced me, but God proved it.
I learned that just because you perceive you lost at something one time or two times before does not mean that is how the story will always end.
3) My move to Tallahassee in late 2013 placed me in some tough spots. I was new town, new to working in the state Capitol, and new to moving away from home for the first time. In other words, there was A LOT of newness. To be frank, I was not as open to change and growth at the rate the move required. BUT this year taught me I could stand, look around, and pout or jump in and be apart of the action. I am not sure that I can truly express how hard this was for me. It was HARD.
However, as I look back over the last few months, I have developed friendships with some amazing people in Tallahassee, I have grown to love the small town (I can literally walk to the Capitol from my downtown apartment), and I learned that even though I may not be achieving all my goals and dreams when I want to, I remain blessed.
Heading in 2016 for me is a blessing! I will write out goals in the day or so, but I am not rushing because I am still praising God for bringing me through 2015. I am praising God for allowing me to beat the odds and statistics that come with my background.
Friends, go forth in your lane, stop comparing yourself and your journey to others, and take time to smell the roses.
Happy New Year!